The moment one definitely commits oneself, then
providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way.
G-d is looking out for me in ways I can't even begin to imagine - but perhaps one of them is slowly (or suddenly) removing the notion that there is a "me" to look out for?