Monday, October 28, 2024

Gabriel did his undergraduate degree in anthropology and economics in Argentina.  When he finished he felt unsettled, and decided to travel before entering the world of work. He ended up backpacking in the south of India, and ended up in Kerala. As these things happen he met a documentary maker there, who was making a documentary about the Indian Jews of Cochin. The filmaker and Gabriel hit it off, and Gabriel got involved with the production, in a volunteer capacity,drawing upon his anthropology background, and learning about filmaking. 

The filmaker told Gabriel he would be travelling to Israel, where most of the Cochin community had emigrated. Gabriel called his parents, who said they would fund a ticket to Israel, happy their son was travelling to the Jewish homeland and secretly hoping he might meet a suitable partner there.

Although he did not meet a partner there, Gabriel fell in love with Israel. He decided to enroll for a Masters in "Documentary Story telling" ast a little film school in tel Aviv. There was a girlfriend or two, but nothing lasted longer than six months. While a student, partly because the idea titillated him, and partly because he was paid for it, which helped fill out his meagre student allowance, he donated sperm to a fertility clinic adjacent to the Soroka hospital in Tel Aviv. After six months of regular visits to the clinic they told him his services were no longer required, as some couples had conceived from the donations and there was a limit to how much each donor contributed.  

When Gabriel completed his degree he looked for work. After applying unsuccessfully for countless jobs he found a role at the Steven Spielberg Jewish Film Archive cataloging material, but it was a bit of a nowhere job. He had a 3 month fling with a woman he met at an energy healing workshop, but after three months it fizzled out by mutual agreement.

Gabriel, believing he was treading water,  decided to return to the land of his birth, Argentina, for a holiday, and spend some time closer to his parents and a sibling who had married. As happens, his life unfolded as life does. He began working as a research assistant for a production company, and looked for opportunities to make documentaries where his interest in anthropology and film making coalesced. He had two relationships, the second of which turned into marriage, a son and a daughter, a house with a mortgage, some successes and struggles with work, and the ups and downs of life.

The family travelled, the children grew bigger, the marriage was good, but gradually little cracks appeared and the couple slowly drifted apart. By the time both children were attending university the shared life tasks that had been the last remaining glue had dissolved, and Gabriel and his wife decided upon an amicable separation. Gabriel found himself living alone in a two bedroom apartment in Buenos Aires, seeing his children only now and then. They were well adjusted kids, leading increasingly busy lives of their own, and did not have much time or interest in anything but perfunctory contacts. 

There had been a number of terror attacks on Israelis in the last few months, one in the suburb where Gabriel had lived as a student some 30 years ago. He was lonely. The connections which had anchored him to Buenos Aires had somehow evaporated. The impulse arose in him, suddenly, unbidden, to revist the country where he had spent happy years as a relatively carefree student, and after some deliberation he arranged his life so he could spend three months in Israel, 6 weeks volunteering with an organisation that supported orphans whose families had been killed in bombings and shootings, the rest of the time free to travel and look up old acquaintences.

One of the Israeli staff at the organisation was a young woman in her late 20s, a social work student who was doing her placenment at the organisation. Gabriel felt strongly attracted to her, her youth and vitality and kindness. He tried to find excuses to invite her for coffee, ostensibly to discuss organisational matters, but really just so he could spend time with her. She told him about her conflicts  and aspirations, that she was recovering from the breakup of a seven year relationship, and what she hoped to do with her degree when she finished. Gavriel listened, made suggestions, admitted he was attracted to her. She came back to the Air B & B he was renting one night. They kissed. then kissed again.  

"You don't mind that I'm old enough to be your father"
"Give me another drag of that joint and I won't mind"

They slept together

She said it was probably a mistake, but they slept together again. He told her he did not have much to go back to Argentina too, and would commit to her if she did not want to look for a more appropriate age mate. He also offered to take her back to Argentina. She ended the relationship. He finished the six weeks, still besotted with her, but travelled north to help pick fruit on a moshav whose labourers had fled ongoing missiles from Lebanon. After a month in the North he received a phone call.

"I'm pregnant" she said, " I'm taking it as a sign. I've decided to keep the baby. I'm sure he or she will look a lot like us." 

"We should get some genetic testing" he told her. For "Tae Sachs syndrome, and the other Ashkenazi stuff."

They did the tests. It turned out she was his daughter.



Wednesday, August 21, 2024

How may I be of excellent service to you today?

 Scene in a restaurant:

Customer: waiter....waiter.
His friend: what do you want?
Customer: I just want them to bring us some water while we're waiting. Waiter. WAITER.
(eventually his gesticulating catches the attention of a waiter who comes over)
Waiter: what can I get you?
Customer: we've already ordered, but it seems to be taking a long time. can we get some water for the table please?
Waiter: Of course. would you like iced water or room temperature?
Customer: room temperature is fine.
Waiter. Room temperature it is. Two glasses or would you like me to bring a jug as well?
Customer: A jug would be good, especially if you're going to keep us waiting a long time for our food.
Waiter: (laboriously making notes on phone) jug....two glasses....room temperature...right. Would you like that water fizzy or plain?
Customer: is there an additional charge for fizzy?
Waiter: No sir, it's all on the house
Customer. Fizzy then. Can you bring it now...am starting to get thirsty from all these qiuestions.
Waiter: Certainly. Would you like your bubbles to be carbon dioxide or nitrous oxide? We have a machine that can do either...
Customer: However it comes. just bring some water.
Waiter: Would you like your water served in glasses or in this new line of biodgradable cups we're trying out?
Customer: I don't care!
Waiter: Please choose an option.
Customer. Glasses!
Waiter (laboriously records notes on phone). I'll be back very soon with your water.
Waiiter goes. Customer [plays angrily with his cutlery, waiting for the food, or the water, to appear. Eventually it does. Waiter puts down a jug of sparkling water with a slice of lemon in itm, and two cut crystal glasses.
Customer: At last.
The waiter hovers nearby as customer 2 pours customer 1 a glass of water, and then one for himself. they both drink.
Waiter: (stepping back close to the table) how is your water gentleman?
Customer 2; Its fine. its water.
Waiter: temperature ok?
Customer 1: yes, can you go and see where our order is
Waiter: certainly but may I ( he removes a tablet from a pocket in his apron) ask you just to give us some feedback and do a very quick customer satisfaction survey regarding your water experience with us?
Customer 1: No, I don't want to do any surveys. I came here to eat, not to look at screens. And I haven't had a "water experience'. i asked for water. you brought it. I've had a few sips and hope to have more while you find out where the food we ordered 30 minutes ago is.
Waiter: I'm sorry sir, I can't proceed to the next course until you take the survey. Its just one of the little ways we strive to improve our service and enhance customer satisfaction.
Customer 1: but you are creating a very dissatisfied customer here, that's my feedback!
Waiter: I'm sorry its restaurant policy, i don't make the rules. It's only take a minute (thrusts tablet at customer 1, customer 2 takes it)
Customer 2: I'll do it, just so we can get our food and get out of here. (He scrolls through, touching screen to answer multiple questions and give star ratings for multiple metriics regarding their 'water experience. Finishes, hands back to waiter.) There
Waiter: (takes tablet, looks at it, scrolls down) Do you mind me asking, sir, why you've only rated us 1 for service?
Customer 1 This is ridiculous, call the manager.
Waiter: i can do that for you, but first you need to fill in a complaint form ( scrolls and gestures on tablet), I'll just get it up for you... oh, sorry I have to get it off our intranet and I don't have the password on this one, I'll be back soon.
The waiter disappears.
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Invisible Eyes

 Invisibilise


To a one sided academic


invisibilise decades of trauma
plo massacres of school children
Israeli athletes castrated
by Black September murderers at Munich

invisibilise the psychic wounds
a synecdochal sample, one of many:  1979
samir kuntar crosses border,  murders Danny Haran, then smashes the skull of Danny’s 4 year old daughter Einat Haran, her baby  sister Yael Haran suffocates to death while the terrified mother tries to keep her from crying and revealing their hiding place.
upshot? upon release from Israeli prison, in prisoner exchange, kuntar awarded Syria's highest medal and honoured by Iranian President mahmoud ahmadinejad,

invisibilise the successful
torpedoing of the Oslo peace accords by
wave after wave
of hamas suicide bombings
blowing up teenagers at a
discotheque
leaving dancers armless and legless
or pensioners at a pesach seder,
hands trembling a little
as they navigate
spoon to mouth and then trembling no more
bits of flesh in the chandeliers

invisibilise
twisted buses, twisted bus stops
charred bodies, only dna
able to establish who they were
as they headed to market
to buy tomatoes and cucumbers

invisibilise the stabbings
teenagers taken to caves
their hands bound, bodies punctured
with knife wounds

invisibilise
bombs backed with rusty nails
and bolts to tear flesh apart

invisibilise 19 year old
Ori Ansbacher
raped and murdered while walking home
later the grove planted in her memory destroyed by Palestinian vandals.

invisibilise the psychological torture, the television threats
"we'll destroy you just as you were destroyed 80  years ago",
invisibilise the relentless cyber attacks
the gross caricatures, the demonisation, the dehumanisation

invisibilise the
pile on in western “progressive” democracies
by trade unions, professional associations, teachers, academics, artists, journalists, all suddenly and myopically focussed on their shadow aspects of self projected onto Israel. Safe. Easy. Convenient. How many Israel-lovers you gonna rub shoulders with at work or in your university or union or book club?

invisibilise the ecocide
the daily missiles from Gaza and Lebanon, thousands of them
setting pine forests, planted for the love of Zion, ablaze and driving
terrified jackals and hedgehogs and lizards who manage to escape the flames towards the illusion of safety
the fruit
rotting on the trees
farmers unable to attend to their crops

the ballistic missiles fired from Iran and Yemen
the size of buses, designed to maim and murder and terrify
stopped only by Israel’s commitment to protect its citizens

and by Arab ‘allies’,  who vilify Israel in public but quietly co-operate with it, recognising Islamists, not Israel, is the threat

  
invisibilise  the raped and then murdered 

On October 7 2023


the kidnapped,
a red haired baby and toddler bother, whole family
snatched out of their home
whereabouts unknown. 


Judih Weinstein Haggai, seventy years old,
English teacher, poet, peace activist who worked with children with special needs. Who used meditation and mindfulness techniques to treat children suffering from anxiety caused by years of rocket fire from Gaza that have plagued residents of the Gaza border area. murdered with her 72 year old husband Gadi Haggai on October 7,
along with Thai workers, Nepali students, Beduin, Russian, French, US, UK, Ukrainian  nationals, 

invisibilise
the high on Captagon crazed Islamists
shoving machine gun barrels up the bloody vaginas
of the women they've just gang raped
or towing dissidents roped behind motorbikes
around the streets of gaza
throwing homosexuals and political rivals off
rooftops, enforcing a terrible homogenity and
preaching mediaeval blood libels
and then
weave some kind of fairy tale that this
regressive barbarism
equals
"the resistance"

invisibilise the war in Sudan
8.5 million on brink of starvation
and Yemen, Xianjing, Tibet, Myanmar, Ukraine, Syria, gender apartheid in Iran, Afghanistan
no poems for them
no self righteous indignation
no resolutions in local councils, no condemnation at the UN
no marches in the street


close one eye
so you only see gaza
not the other side of the border
so you don't see the North of Israel
depopulated by more missiles than the blitz
150 000 more
pointing at you


or the corpses of murdered hamas captives

left to rot in Gaza, held as trading cards

and to psychologically torture their grieving families 
so that they cannot get closure


close one eye
so you only see the Al Jazeera curated and carefully edited snippet
not the before or after

close both eyes
so you don't see yourself
staring back at you in the mirror
preaching and sanctimoniously stealing
your cheap and easy rectitude

one thing I know for sure
if you sat where Israelis sat
compacent smug fucker
you'd be doing a whole lot
worse than them


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