Notes towards poems 5786

FB July 24

I want to have
my body witnessed
by a notary
in a baby doll nighty

FB July 22

thinking about the vastness
of the cosmos
I step in dog poo

______

בגלל שפחדתי
מהפחד
הלכתי לקרבי

__________

the natural beauty

of the bottle shop

FB July 19

metaphors taken literally:

its eating me up inside ( cookie monster? tapeworm?)

I feel like a million dollars ( ah so money can feel)

he treats me like a door mat ( rubber, coir? do you sleep outside front door)

She let me down ( rope? knotted sheets? Rapunzel?)

I'm just hanging on by the skin of my teeth ( OMG hope it doesn't get stretch marks)

He's always fishing for compliiments ( and here was I thinking he is vegan)

I feel like they are just playing with me (soccer? cricket? charades?)

You look like you about to explode ( please don't...unless you're a suicide bomber, in which case do it far away from me and your intended victims )

______

in many ways psychologists

are like sex workers

both equally

noble professions

they charge by the hour

see parts of people

that others do not

they provide a facsimile

of intimacy

which is, but isn't

and must by necessity

come close while keeping

some distance

FB Jul 17

Like Macbeth

call it fatalism

call it despair

once I've started the burger

I finish it

FB July 16

Does no one love you?

Then why does the sun not withhold its light

and the trees still offer their shade?

FB July 9

Looking for an experienced therapist ( for myself) skilled in working with complex ongoing trauma caused by administrivia

FB July 2

In winter

tiny cockroaches

can live on dust

and moonbeams

but in summer

as they grow

they are impelled

to venture forth in search

of bigger prey

FB July 1

my red blood cell count is

low

the birds are singing

a vital young woman walks by

I turn to drink in

the promise of her body hoping to get an infusion from her

FB June 29

Even desires

- a narrow constricted distant echo of the infinite -

are love in disguise

FB 12 May

sad medium
angry medium
happy medium!

FB 11 May

I wish I could chat up women

silently

wordlessly

telepathically

without long

courtship rituals

the neither of us really believe in

but, not worried about what comes after,

just nod to each other

and poof! find ourselves

waking up in a bedroom

entwined

_______

May 10

psychic large?
psychic small?
psychic medium!

____________

May 6

clover moore:

trendy terrorism

designer bombings

mangled lives and

bodies of teenagers

at the Dolphinarium,

and pensioners

at the Park Hotel

painted over

with nail polish

_____________

the more dangerous

the world seems to become

the more I seek safety

in dreams of nipples

and what lies

in the interstitial

of female

thighs

_____________

May 5

Black olives on the path

what had to be picked

with hard labour

a few months prior

is now given freely

May 2

ripples on a still pond:
desire

April 30

Get your shit together

to be a Jew

is to have

lots of other people

project their shit

onto you

The Jewish year 5786 runs from sunset on September 22, 2025, to sunset on September 11, 2026. In Jewish tradition, it is considered a year of divine connection, symbolized by the Hebrew letter vav (ו), representing a hook, bridge, or connection between heaven and earth, often referred to as a year to "stretch to connect" or build unity.Key Significance of 5786:Hebrew Letter Vav (ו): The year is associated with the 6th letter, vav, which acts as a connector and represents humanity (created on the 6th day).Theme of Connection: It is viewed as a time for divine alignment, bringing together disjointed seasons, and connecting the spiritual and physical realms - and hopefully in my case, the inner and the outer.

I watch the mind, its machinations, its impossible hunger for safety and comfort, its fears and desires. That is what mind does.

April 21 St

there will never be a better moment

than now

there will never be a better tree

than this tree

there will never be a better pain

than this pain

there will never be a better acceptance

than this acceptance

there will never be a better moment

than now

April 20

a cloud of grief

settled on the children of Sinai

and the sky was so dark

you could see stars in the daytime

April 17

A MESSAGE FROM THE ROAD SAFETY COUNCIL

Beware of blind spots

beware of sighted spots

beware of excited spots

beware of deaf spots

beware of black spots

beware of white spots

beware of (recently) spotted

spots

in general exercise due caution

when approaching spots

April 15

Process poems

worrying about dying?

a sure sign

you're still alive 

*

whenever there is an emotional issue in my life

and I feel a bit disconnected

the numbness in my left foot increases

because everything is connected

*

I watch the talk on sex addiction

because I find the presenter

very sexy

April 13

A heavy burden

The Bondi massacre must never be forgotten"

"The October 7 massacre must never be forgotten"

"The Shoah must never be forgotten"

"The Chmielnicki massacres must never be forgotten"

"The expulsion from Spain must never be forgotten"

"The destruction of Jerusalem and the Temples must never be forgotten"

"The Exodus must never be forgotten"

"Shabbat must never be forgotten"

O my sweet people

with all these things to remember

when will you find time

to live?

April 8 26

I watch the talk on objectification

because the presenter has big breasts

April 5

Its the Easter/Passover long weekend, so police are out in force, and random breath testing can happen anytime, anywhere. Bad breath can attract spot fines of up to $250, and gingivitis up to $300. So brush your teeth people!

April 2

you can never

outrun loneliness

so embrace 

surrender

and go home

April 1

Pesach

tribal

tidal

pulling me

like the moon

March 31

urban loneliness

rural loneliness

single loneliness

partnered loneliness

lonely loneliness

implausible loneliness

One

without a second

__________

March 29

"don't hide your light behind
a bushel...
but if bustin
you may pee there"

______

singles night

8 lonely people
together

_______

March 27

"say something true"
"I can't"
"yes you can"
"am"

March 26

the worm in Blake's poem:
the thought "something is wrong"

March 25

the body as a fear battery
waiting to discharge

March 24

There are different kinds of silence

quiet silence

loud silence

silence that screams

louder than noise March 19

Alibis people produce at choir practice in response to internal prosecutor:

March 18

self doubt
is part of the journey

March 15 2026

she sobbed
and the waves sobbed with her

TIME OUT - then 2026 continues below these two

FB MAY 15 2023

Gender Differences??

I place my sperm

inside her

tens of thousands of them

she places her words

inside me

tens of thousands of them

FB December 8 2021

My young adult son

keeps his distance

but feeds me the occasional

morsel

major victories and defeats

but nothing in between

like a dog gone for weeks

that only comes indoors

to bring a magnificent rat

to place at my feet

or, cowed, tail folded

rests a while between them.

and when he does

despite the bitter thoughts

that seemed to calcify

in the long bleak silences

amazingly

the best father I know how

appears with

open arms

and heart

____________

March 12 2026

even when a woman is scowling
at you
her breasts may still be smiling

In what year

was the anti oxidant party founded

March 10

DENTIST FOR WEALTHY PEOPLE

designer anaesthetics

platinum tipped drills

gold filligree floss